Pop Kiss-offs vs Today's Happy Pop Hits

Pop Kiss-offs.

The songza playlist I'm currently blasting into my eardrums.

Description: Been wronged by your sleazy ex? Tired of your lover's lies? Vent your broken-hearted frustration with this collection of violent and defiant breakup songs. And remember: you deserve better. 

Now, before you draw conclusions or anything, I have not been wronged by my sleazy ex, nor am I tired of my lover's lies. Refer here for my explanation of my single-ness. It's actually pretty great

The words that stuck out to me in the description are those that are bolded and italicized. Why? Because they're great.

frustration; Yeah. I'd say I'm a little frustrated with myself/life right now.

you deserve better; Normally when people say that, it's about an ex special someone. In this case, it's about an ex self. No, it isn't about a boy. Again, refer to my 'single-ness' post.

I hate ranting blog posts. Mine or anyone else's.

So, no, this isn't a ranting post.

But I'm not too thrilled about pretty much everything about me right now.

As I read through these different quotes, I realize I have nothing to say. They pretty much sum it up. As for regrets, I challenge everyone to set their life priorities straight. 

Sometimes, they get a little foggy.

Some people really never realize how good they have it.

Has your mom woken you up, make you breakfast, did something for you, and/or kiss you goodbye in the past week? Go tell her thank you. Some people don't get to come home to her everyday.

Arguing with your siblings? Be the bigger person. Some people don't get to be there everyday in their lives to watch them grow up, give them advice on love and school, buy them ice cream for their first heart break, or tell them yes, their outfit looks good. 

Appreciate. Because sometimes, you don't take them for granted like you should.

And it makes you feel so terrible. 

Make them your first priority. They're way more important than friends.

I wish my family could know how much I really love them.

As for life, when you have the flu and two ear infections, everything gets foggy. You do stupid things, make stupid decisions, and just don't really think. Why? Because it literally hurts to think. And I'm pretty it makes you super emotional.

This is seriously the weirdest blog post ever. 

Oh man. The life of an almost 15 year old teenage girl. 

So crazy.

Not really. 

I don't feel like I have anyone that I can really talk to about my problems. So I guess I just blog about them and how to solve them . . . Whatever. It helps.

I just want to dance my life away.

That is all. 

Life gets better guys. Just hang in there. You're the only one who can really make you happy.

"Things will get better in the end. If they aren't better, then it isn't the end."

Word.

My playlist now: 

Today's Happy Pop Hits.

: )

XOXO,

Halli

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The Goods and the Bads of Life; We All Have Both

* Prepare yourself for some ups and downs {well, mostly downs} throughout this post. *

While most of you were probably out and about doing the usual Thursday things everyone does, I spent most of my day {10 hours to be exact} at a care center holding the hand of my great grandma. 

If you ever have the opportunity to go see a loved one who only has a few years left, never turn it down. There is nothing like crying because of regret. I had so many opportunities. . .

There is also nothing like sitting at a care center until midnight next to a being that you feel so much love for, knowing you're going to lose them at any second.

It was hard to leave, but I had to come back home on Friday to cheer on my fellow Bruins. We lost to Mountain Crest, but I still believe in them. I mean , it was only a pre season game. 

Being the fighter my great grandma was, she was still there when I went back for 3 hours Saturday night. Although she was there, she hadn't talked all day, and also had a fever of 103.7 when I got there.    A nurse who was close to my grandma would always sing to her when she was the one caring for her. She had come in on Saturday and after she was done singing to her she said, "I'll see you in the morning, Maxine!" That was when my grandma finally said something. "No." That one little word. That's when everyone kind of understood. It was happening that night. Leaving the care center at about midnight, I was SO frustrated. All of the great-grandkids were being hauled off. The nurses gave her something that would get rid of her now 102.9 fever. It is very common that when someone as fragile as my grandma was given this medicine, they would pass away once it wore off. 

None of the adults would let me stay. They were all talking about how 'when you see someone actually die, it all you remember about them' blah blah blah. Little did they know,

It's all I wanted. 

I didn't have many memories as it was. I'm a big girl and I had already come to terms with her passing. And most importantly,

I wasn't them.

Just because that's all they remember, doesn't mean that's all I would.

Maxine Taylor passed away Sunday August 19th, at 2:20 a.m.

Like I said, I've come to terms with her passing. But, I still miss her so much.

We all ate dinner as a family today, in remembrance of her. 

Releasing emotion, leaving memories, sending love. RIP Grandma Taylor. <3

XOXO,

Halli

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